What is real?

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chickadee
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What is real?

Post by chickadee » Tue Aug 07, 2018 1:05 am

I have a difficult time with reality sometimes. Growing up, my family was very good at pretending things were normal even though they were not.

I think I trained myself to believe an idealized version of reality. I've always had a really good imagination, and I escaped into books and stories.

Now I'm getting out of an abusive marriage, and for years I believed that things were normal in my marriage even though they weren't. My ex was abusive, and he twisted my reality. I had to believe what he believed in order for my marriage to work. I logically know that he was abusive, but I catch myself doubting myself. When will this doubt ever end? Will it end?

I am working with a therapist who is helping me, but I get frustrated with myself. Will I ever be able to believe myself again?
"These mountains that you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb." - Najwa Zebian

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Re: What is real?

Post by IMA » Tue Aug 07, 2018 1:28 am

Chickadee

I too have came from an abusive relationship and I can relate to your struggles with reality sometimes and I am here supporting you.

IMA

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Re: What is real?

Post by wolfspirit » Sun Sep 02, 2018 5:08 am

chickadee,
I do think you will believe yourself as you continue to ground your thoughts in reality.
I admire how you face the truth now, instead of living in a state of someone else's perspective or beliefs.
You recognize that the truth protects you and supports you. It doesn't threaten or demean you.

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Rumi

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