Making progress at night
Posted: Tue Jun 07, 2022 10:00 am
*Trigger warning: mentions the word abuse and flashbacks and discusses feelings associated with CPTSD*
I just moved and I've had to readjust my sleep because my body thinks I'm in danger even though I'm not. For the first 5 nights I didn't sleep at all. Then I started sleeping but having memories of abuse and my body would wake up in crisis. I'd call the crisis line, but struggled. Tonight I woke up at midnight but I was not as triggered. I could not fall back to sleep but I was able to use my crisis kit - which I haven't been able to do at night previously. I've painted, done a sticker puzzle book, found and listened to music I love. I mean it sucks I can't sleep but I'm so excited to make some progress!
I just moved and I've had to readjust my sleep because my body thinks I'm in danger even though I'm not. For the first 5 nights I didn't sleep at all. Then I started sleeping but having memories of abuse and my body would wake up in crisis. I'd call the crisis line, but struggled. Tonight I woke up at midnight but I was not as triggered. I could not fall back to sleep but I was able to use my crisis kit - which I haven't been able to do at night previously. I've painted, done a sticker puzzle book, found and listened to music I love. I mean it sucks I can't sleep but I'm so excited to make some progress!