I just... wanted to share something very good that I'm proud of myself for, that feels like a step towards healing. I was dealing with being triggered, and flashbacks and lots of fear, and so I called a hotline for support, and it helped! So so much! I was able to tell the person on the other end what was going on, that I was feeling afraid and dissociated, and they helped me through distraction.
A little plan we came up with was for me to paint, I haven't done that yet but I've eaten which I think is a good step as well, and I went on a short walk to calm down once I felt I could, and now I'm going to paint.
I was in a very hard place, and I sought out help, and it helped! And while I don't feel very good at the moment, I feel a lot better than I did, and, I'm really happy about that. I'm still struggling but I feel capable and grounded again and that's really important to me.
Take care all, thank you for reading,
Lilypod
