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Hello ,
I am new and have been browsing topics . Amazing to see so much support:)
I am a slow learner so I hope I am.posting in the correct place,with the correct label
I was prompted to journal about my feelings associated with sadness , which I have done . Of course this has left me feeling sad and alone . Quite a bit out of sorts
When looking inward I see so many terrifying emotions . Today vulnerabilty and shame were my words . I believe one builds the other ...admitting the shameful parts makes me feel so vulnerable but I can't keep hiding . I feel like my shame keeps my pain hidden deep ,so deep I wonder if it will ever be healed . With this shame comes an overwhelming feeling of guilt. Somewhere buried deep within the shame I know I am not to blame but the guilt points at me and tells me that ,I am bad ,that I need to hide this from the world .The guilt sits with the shame and they mingle deep in my mind convincing me to leave them there- so they can control me until it all becomes a fear so strong I run from it or i will drown in it.
This is scary for me to share ......but I could not keep sitting with all these emotions..
Thank you for a space to share
I am new and have been browsing topics . Amazing to see so much support:)
I am a slow learner so I hope I am.posting in the correct place,with the correct label
I was prompted to journal about my feelings associated with sadness , which I have done . Of course this has left me feeling sad and alone . Quite a bit out of sorts
When looking inward I see so many terrifying emotions . Today vulnerabilty and shame were my words . I believe one builds the other ...admitting the shameful parts makes me feel so vulnerable but I can't keep hiding . I feel like my shame keeps my pain hidden deep ,so deep I wonder if it will ever be healed . With this shame comes an overwhelming feeling of guilt. Somewhere buried deep within the shame I know I am not to blame but the guilt points at me and tells me that ,I am bad ,that I need to hide this from the world .The guilt sits with the shame and they mingle deep in my mind convincing me to leave them there- so they can control me until it all becomes a fear so strong I run from it or i will drown in it.
This is scary for me to share ......but I could not keep sitting with all these emotions..
Thank you for a space to share
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Welcome Patsfan,
Company we can offer. Making the sadness go away, well we can commiserate. This is a very supportive healing community. Take your time and post as you wish. The first post is the scary one. After that if becomes almost normal.
again welcome,
Harmony
Company we can offer. Making the sadness go away, well we can commiserate. This is a very supportive healing community. Take your time and post as you wish. The first post is the scary one. After that if becomes almost normal.
again welcome,
Harmony
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Welcome Patsfan
I am fairly new here too - i feel heard, supported and understood in a way i havent had in real life here, others may not have gone through the same things, but as a collective understand at a deep level when i post and its really helping me. but also responding to others helps me too.
i hope you have a similar experience, do keep posting and reading, it can be cathartic
wishing you well on your journey
I am fairly new here too - i feel heard, supported and understood in a way i havent had in real life here, others may not have gone through the same things, but as a collective understand at a deep level when i post and its really helping me. but also responding to others helps me too.
i hope you have a similar experience, do keep posting and reading, it can be cathartic
wishing you well on your journey
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Welcome, {patsfan!!} <----- safe hug, if ok(?)
Sorry to know of yer need, glad ya found us. Echoing others.
Sorry to know of yer need, glad ya found us. Echoing others.
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Welcome to isurvive, Patsfan. I'm sorry for the reasons but glad you are here.
With care,
Serenity
With care,
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Nice to hear all the replys .thanks
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Welcome! I am pretty new too, and have had much help from this community!
EasyStreet
Thanks for being
(On this forum, in my tribe, chatting or not, prosper and thrive!)
Thanks for being
(On this forum, in my tribe, chatting or not, prosper and thrive!)
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Welcome from another very newbie. Wishing you relief. Warmly, Flifflo
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Hi Patsfan
Adding my warm welcome to the mix
Adding my warm welcome to the mix
You are important
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Email: jonesy@isurvive.org
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welcome to our friendly little corner of the web
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I will become a survivor not a victim
Gentle (((((hugs))))) if ok
I will become a survivor not a victim
Gentle (((((hugs))))) if ok