There's Healing Journey 2018

[there]

((((reisha))))

[there]

hitting a low,
don't want to hurt myself

[dancingfish]

Sitting here with you, if you like, there. If okay offering you kindness so you can just be in kindness. You are good enough. :)

[Genesis]

Sitting with you, there.

I’m nearly at my lowest point in my life. We can do this. I keep repeating to myself, “I deserve happiness and to be at peace”. Even though I don’t believe it, my mood has improved just slightly. If nothing else, it’s drowning out the memories.

I cannot take away your pain, but I hope I can make you feel a little less alone in it.

[there]

wow,
thank you, dancingfish and Genesis.
It means so much that you care.
Thanks, dancingfish, for kindness.
Thanks, Genesis, and sorry you are at a low also.
I will try telling myself 'you are good enough.' and 'you deserve peace and happiness.'
Thank you for being with me, at least here.

[there]

Here it goes again....
Filled out a form to join the Y, financial aid.
Do you think I can find it?
I don't have a desk. I use the top drawer of my dresser for papers, bills,etc.

I hate PTS. I hate not being organized when I know I'm capable of it.

I'm so tired of doing everythign2ce.
Gonna find a file thing to keep papers in.

ScReAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[there]

found it in the drawer.
was there the whole time.
need to complete it with additional forms.

Even with my dog, it's so lonely.
Did have very nice convo on bus with a friendly guy, then his father joined in.

Just gotta get myself in a good head space for a while.

HeLP.

[wolfspirit]

there,
Thought about you today while sitting in silence. You doing your energy exercises. Walking Tula. Doodling. Painting. Giving kids the chance to experience imaginary play and love stories.
You are resilient and resourceful.
I'm sorry you feel alone.
I am thinking about you, even if I am not here.

hugs,

ws

[reisha]

{{{THERE!!!}}}

ssorry to read yer goin 'thru it' too. Sittin w ya, cookies for tula & cats, & feel good tea for us. Throwin mushmallows at the wall to see what sticks. Gentle hugs & much care, love & support.

[there]

thank you, ws and reisha for your kind words of support.

I have been taking care of myself the best I know how. One situation is somewhat better-with the T.

Have plans to go out for a Christmas Eve dinner with a friend who is also alone. This is someone I met in a trauma support group several years ago.
Hoping it goes pretty well.

Have been waking up in the 8-9 a.m. range for several days. Getting to sleep before midnight more regularly, too. All of my hard work with energy medicine, qigong, mantra meditation are paying off.

Working pretty consistently on a creative project, even with the season's demands. It's something I really like doing.

Also, practicing piano most days, learning a jazz tune from an online teacher. He reminds me a lot of my jazz piano teacher I had for a few years. They both went to the same music school, and I can tell their similarities in teaching high quality skills, ergonomic awareness, love of music.

Tula went to vet appt. yesterday. She's pretty healthy, due for dental exam, has a little' tag' on her gums that will be checked out.

Taking a break atm, although being busier has been helping.

Hoping for peaceful moments for all....