Something Simple

[there]

IMA,
Happy Belated Birthday! Sorry I missed the actual date.

Giving oneself respect and self-compassion every day-- that's great!

Always like to read your ideas and experiences, IMA.

[IMA]

Thank you there

[IMA]

Today I think about this person I like...

Then the thoughts of my past flood in

Like I'm to unclean for you...

I can't kiss you on the lips... won't even try it no. That hurts but you'll thank you later

My soul is covered with stains of disgust and shame...how could I possibly share soul ties with you

A crush is all I will ever get to...

I'm just tired of being so gross, but this part of me will never fade, so let it only stay with me... die with me.

I know I'm not these things but the beliefs follows me everywhere , all the time.

I had a nightmare a day ago, couldn't move my body when it happened again....

Today crying feels good

A plus I love finding away around lifes hardships... a kiss on the cheek gave me clarity

[IMA]

Good videos overall with a little sadness.

[there]

IMA,
Thinking of you , reading along.

[wolfspirit]

IMA,
Hoping you are doing okay and glad to read your posts.
Sorry there is a part of you that feels gross. Can the other parts of you soothe that part? Clean it, wash the grossness away?
Or maybe it feels gross to protect itself.

<3
ws

[IMA]

Heart break is one of those pains that follows me in and out relationships....

Its final kicking in that I need to be alone and not look for love sighs...

[IMA]

Today is just as hard since yesterday, but the way I look at it has changed. In time this pain will heal but for now it let my tears run down my face and keep me company as I fall asleep tonight.

[IMA]

Life updates

I have two jobs

Me and soulmate at slowly reconnecting

I have been talking about alot of trauma in therapy with my new therapist

Still not having sex.. sex is linked to my traumatic experiences so I'm still processing that out so no partner yet

Family members are supportive assholes still in the making and I cant wait until my credit is good enough to move out

I wish my best friend of 17 years made time for me for a simple phone call now a days but I have been coping by going onto 7cups

I'm still over weight so I may start a diet soon to help me lose 60 pounds

[earthhorse]

Please be gentle with you.

Sounds like so much is going right. Positive and strong.

Would like to say, if okay? Please be okay with your body. Even if you can not love it. You deserve acceptance. you deserve health - better to give this the focus. Your body's size can be because of lots of things, and it can be healthy at any size. Focus on being kind good and loving to your body. Choose things your body needs. See addictions. Is it okay to let them go? If not then also accept this even while you acknowledge it. You have important reasons why. When you are ready things change, because you will have understood what was holding you back, and it will be time to let it go.

Hoping you can get your own place soon!

EH