No, I'm not a smoker (not any more). But I do like the smell of a bonfire. There's no reason behind the name I chose (I guess that's the point of these forums, isn't it!)
I'm actually a very nice person, but somehow I don't see it - at least, not all the time. At the moment I'm blind to it, so I'm going to post here what I've done today that's right, what I've done that's positive, what disciplines I'm using to heal, flourish, thrive. You're welcome to read it. It's really just an anonymous place to record it so that I can come and look at it among friends (I don't know you yet, but I know you're there)
So, today - I got up. I had my morning coffee and porridge. I wrote a nice memory in my note book. I read a bit about cptsd to help myself understand. I did a day's work 'in the office' (which is currently my lounge). I drank glasses of water. I ranted in private when I felt critical, and made a joke to my inner critic (about bananas), and my cat sat on me, and I laughed. I listened to a talk about self-care on YouTube, and about self protection. I had homemade soup for lunch. I got in touch with someone I love. I stroked my cat. I went for a walk. I watched the sky. I did deep breathing and tremoring (my way of releasing held trauma). I was polite on emails (not always easy!). I finished work on time (I started late, but didn't beat myself up about it - will try to be on time tomorrow). This evening I join my meditation group. And I'll talk to my partner online (we're apart at the moment for a couple more weeks).
What a good day Smokey
I'm proud of you
