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Hello.

I haven´t been around for a while now. I have had some issues about the "problems" and I haven´t been able to even read about the theme. Now I am better and I am struggling with some other issues at the moment.

I have started to do my thesis for my Chinese Medicin education (acupuncture etc) and my thesis is about my childhood happenings (incest, father). I am having anxiety etc while I am searching for info about the theme and also trying to look up some good books/texts/articles/PDFs.
Any ideas of any good?

I will post a question about the thesis and if you could help me I would appriciate it a lot.

Hi silent moon,

Congratulations on your studies in Chinese Medicine. You can be proud of making it through the schooling.

Welcome back to the forum. What kind of information are you hoping to find? Have you done much work with a therapist on your own life healing? What have you found helpful? In terms of scholarly works isurvive is not a big resource. In terms of life experience and healing we are a deep resource.

Give people more details of what you seek. Also what has been helpful to you in getting you to this point in your own journey.

with support,
Harmony

Hello Silent Moon,

Thanks for sharing your journey. How wonderful you are training to bring healing others. One of my dearest friends is receiving intensive acupuncture on a weekly basis in cancer recovery.

Good on you.

VAC

Thanx Harmony and VAC!
For some reason I started to tear up when I read your answers. <3

Harmony, basically it´s more life experience and healing I would like to have help with. Stories and how people have experienced. Is it here or where should I put this question...?

Here is a rough plan of what I would like to write about in my thesis.

1. How other women have coped as adults?
2. In general about incest worldwide and my country
3. Where is the most incest worldwide?
4. Who are more likely to abuse children mothers or fathers? Ages of the children.
5. How women is appreciated in different countries
6. My story
7. How it has affected you?
8. What have helped me so far and what have helped others.
9. Perhaps a review of types of treatment? And their relative effectiveness?
10. Compare alternate medicine in the treatment of different kinds of trauma
11. Acup treatment
12. How the relationship is between me and my father, me and my mother

My "big breakthrough" was when I got cognitive therapy for about six years. Before that I had struggled on my own through schools and life. I got one year with a psychologist before I started the cognitive therapy. It is about five years ago I finnished the cognitive part of my therapy. That was basically that I sat down and talked about how my week had been and then more detailed discussions or talkings about my past.

My past is that I was molested by my dad from 7 years old to 12 years old. I am not sure of when it started, I can remember it from seven years old. Since I have been in the cognitive therapy I have so to say forgotten mostly details about the molesting. Some of them are still here, but I have locked the others up in a box so to say.

After I had had my cognitive therapy I was ready to share my past with people. Before that I wasn´t even ready for that. So three (or is it already four) years ago I started to go to a peer support group for incest. There I was once a week for about a year. I told people here at this forum about my childhood at the same time I was in this group. I hadn´t feel so "free"/myself before. Then I moved and after that I didn´t go anymore to the group. At the same time we got really bad problems with our neighbourns about our dogs (we lived then in a high-rise) and I got pretty depressed once again.

A year after this I told at the time my best friend about the molesting, she was the first one I had ever told (except for doctors, therapist etc). That was a hugh step for me.

The next step is basically pretty new, I started psychotherapy (if you know what that is) in april this year. So far I have loved it and it´s hard and difficult, though it seems that I get so much more out of it than what I have got before this.

I am finnishing my Chinese Medicin studies that I have been studying now for about four years. Perhaps the biggest step I have taken in my molested journey happened the other weekend actually. I told my acup teacher, that is at the same time the first person I have told that know who my father is. I am perhaps not really understanding this yet, that I finally took this step.

And of course one big step is that I have decided this winter/spring that I am going to do the thesis about my molesting. Despite that it will then come out in a bigger picture. I started in the spring with the thesis, but it was too much I noticed. So I have had a few moths brake now, and after I told my acup teacher I have started again. And now it is really hard as well but it seems that I am more capable to do this. And that is basically where I am at this moment.

Thanx for reading this!!! <3

silentmoon,

Bravo!

VAC

Well... Thanx VAC!

The problem now is to get further... And to get some answers on my questions. That seems to be more difficult than I thought... Or then I am perhaps unpatient...