why do I do this
Posted: Thu Aug 21, 2014 2:59 am
I can never seem to fully shake the past and I'm so Freakin tired of it. Am I expecting too much? Are these feelings caused by triggers or am I deserving? Please help me understand.
Situation: dh had somewhere to go after work related to work. Was taking longer than should. I texted to ck on him-yes, really. He texted me back but wouldn't tell me exactly what he was doing. After abt an hour I call. He doesn't answer. Then I text. No reply. Call again and he has turned phone off. Almost 45 minutes before he finally calls me back. PISSED at ME. From no where. I'm crying bc I feel disrespected bc he turned phone off. He has continued to blow me off now that he's home. I of course think the worse but why? ? Is it me? Or am I justified? I am so screwed up I don't even know what NORMAL is. I automatically feel like he is doing something with someone he shouldn't. I hate this feeling so bad. Please, please tell me what to do and how to feel. I want to go away.
Situation: dh had somewhere to go after work related to work. Was taking longer than should. I texted to ck on him-yes, really. He texted me back but wouldn't tell me exactly what he was doing. After abt an hour I call. He doesn't answer. Then I text. No reply. Call again and he has turned phone off. Almost 45 minutes before he finally calls me back. PISSED at ME. From no where. I'm crying bc I feel disrespected bc he turned phone off. He has continued to blow me off now that he's home. I of course think the worse but why? ? Is it me? Or am I justified? I am so screwed up I don't even know what NORMAL is. I automatically feel like he is doing something with someone he shouldn't. I hate this feeling so bad. Please, please tell me what to do and how to feel. I want to go away.