I needed to express myself tonight. I am safe, but still very much enjoy the fantasy of escape. My sentence structure and grammar are a nightmare but I still wanted to share.
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There is no escape from my reality.
I wish I could disappear.
I remember the touching, the confusion, the desperation, the fear.
Don’t move! Don’t speak!
I slide into the white.
Am I enjoying it? Encouraging him?
The confusion extinguishes my light.
It is over, once more, and I find happiness in the relief.
But when will it happen next?
Did it happen at all?
My happiness is brief.
I was just a child, yet I still am.
She is stuck in there.
Living just like this in marriage.
In complete silence.
He could never understand.
It’s my secret and I get to choose how much I hold.
Yet, I am caged by the only way that feels safe as the depth of this pain is too much to unfold.
There is no escape from my reality.
I wish I could disappear.
I want to walk into the white and leave behind all that is too much to bear.
A Poem. Don’t worry, I am safe.
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A Poem. Don’t worry, I am safe.
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Re: A Poem. Don’t worry, I am safe.
Well done expressing as you have, Genesis. You write well and poetry is a great tool to reach for.
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Thank you, Watercolor.
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Wow, Genesis,
nice work.
I really see you walking ‘into the white’.
nice work.
I really see you walking ‘into the white’.
All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.
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Thank you, there.
It’s hard to go back and read my words from last week. I’m good at pretending I’m fine and staying so busy that I don’t have to feel this stuff. It feels terrible. Sigh.
It’s hard to go back and read my words from last week. I’m good at pretending I’m fine and staying so busy that I don’t have to feel this stuff. It feels terrible. Sigh.
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Aww, Genesis,
I hope you have more times of creativity like this and fewer terrible times.
I hope you have more times of creativity like this and fewer terrible times.
All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.
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Wow genesis,
This was very moving. I could really feel the emotions you were portraying. you say you aren’t good with words, but this was awesome!
This was very moving. I could really feel the emotions you were portraying. you say you aren’t good with words, but this was awesome!
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Thank you, Chessgirl. I appreciate your reply.
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