Life of There: 2020
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Oh poot Tula. I do hope a new trash can remedies the situation.
I feel like there is a lot that people have changed thru history. I do wish gender wasnt such and inequality. Neither direction. We are people first. Before we are a gender. I do find it interesting that such a large amount of the world is patriarchal.
Sitting with you and noname and any other isurvive friends in a nice conversation somewhere pleasant and inviting. Batting away the lonliness. Not here. Not today.
I feel like there is a lot that people have changed thru history. I do wish gender wasnt such and inequality. Neither direction. We are people first. Before we are a gender. I do find it interesting that such a large amount of the world is patriarchal.
Sitting with you and noname and any other isurvive friends in a nice conversation somewhere pleasant and inviting. Batting away the lonliness. Not here. Not today.
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Thanks, Noname, coconuts!
So nice to know you're here.
I'll respond more tomorrow.
So nice to know you're here.
I'll respond more tomorrow.
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I deserve better than survival.
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Hi there,
No pressure. Just thinking of you and hoping you're doing ok.
No pressure. Just thinking of you and hoping you're doing ok.
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Hey there, just thinking of you too. :) Hope your weekend has had some pleasant moments, perhaps a nice walk with Tula too.
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hi, coconuts, Noname, danci gfish,
I really wonder why so many languages have gendered nouns, plus th articles. Who determined those? I wonder why English doesn't.
Noname, I'm really glad you're here more lately. Not as depressed these past few days.
dancingfish, I found some organic baked beans made w maple syrup. Yum.
Did I mention here that I found an envelope of negatives including for the childhood photo I misplaced? THAT has cheered me up a lot. My Dad saved a lot of stuff, thankfully.
Also, used my haircut groupon Friday. They were really nice at the salon. I was encourage when making the appt.that the owner reminded me to wear a mask. They're Spanish-speaking, and another customer interpreted a bit. I understand some of what I hear, can speak a little. So that was fun. And some guy here complimented my hair . I would never have expected it from him.
Tula got a sniffy walk in the contained wild today. I took a little meandering path off of the paved one. Soon we were surrounded closesly by tall, thick reedy growth, almost like being in a corn maze , (I imagine). Tula was a little scared at first, but we forged ahead. It was our little adventure.
Did a fair amount of uploading images of papers I need to clear out.
A basin full of dishes awaits me in the sink. And laundry. Fun stuff. Maybe will play YouTube music doing the dishes.
Thinking of you all...
I really wonder why so many languages have gendered nouns, plus th articles. Who determined those? I wonder why English doesn't.
Noname, I'm really glad you're here more lately. Not as depressed these past few days.
dancingfish, I found some organic baked beans made w maple syrup. Yum.
Did I mention here that I found an envelope of negatives including for the childhood photo I misplaced? THAT has cheered me up a lot. My Dad saved a lot of stuff, thankfully.
Also, used my haircut groupon Friday. They were really nice at the salon. I was encourage when making the appt.that the owner reminded me to wear a mask. They're Spanish-speaking, and another customer interpreted a bit. I understand some of what I hear, can speak a little. So that was fun. And some guy here complimented my hair . I would never have expected it from him.
Tula got a sniffy walk in the contained wild today. I took a little meandering path off of the paved one. Soon we were surrounded closesly by tall, thick reedy growth, almost like being in a corn maze , (I imagine). Tula was a little scared at first, but we forged ahead. It was our little adventure.
Did a fair amount of uploading images of papers I need to clear out.
A basin full of dishes awaits me in the sink. And laundry. Fun stuff. Maybe will play YouTube music doing the dishes.
Thinking of you all...
All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.
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Sounds like many good things happening. And overdue hair cut and an adventure. Not to mention finding lost treasure. What positive things to surround you with
Coconuts
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Hi, coconuts,
Yeah, trying to keep head around the positive stuff. And keeping up getting stuff done.
Laundry, made some breakfast and now lunch, worked on some art.
Now having to return replacement iPad because it worked briefly then stopped taking a charge.
We actually got a little rain last night and today.
Probably going to UPS to make copies.
Need to do mantra meditation.
Praying for progress faster than a snail.
Yeah, trying to keep head around the positive stuff. And keeping up getting stuff done.
Laundry, made some breakfast and now lunch, worked on some art.
Now having to return replacement iPad because it worked briefly then stopped taking a charge.
We actually got a little rain last night and today.
Probably going to UPS to make copies.
Need to do mantra meditation.
Praying for progress faster than a snail.
All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.
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Progress even at snail pace is progress, but yeah i think we all want to see better gains faster.
That darn ipad. I hope they get it fixed. Glad you took time to do your meditation and some art. Good for the soul.
Coconuts
That darn ipad. I hope they get it fixed. Glad you took time to do your meditation and some art. Good for the soul.
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Heh, I'm not sure I can even see (my) progress at all sometimes. Perhaps it's one of those "big picture" perspectives it takes time and/or wisdom to really perceive, not homing in on little details. (Or that way the mind tends to see everything as objects I guess, as you said the other day. :) )
I can see your progress though, there! Keeping the positive stuff in your mind, too. I guess it can crowd out the negative perhaps, if/when our minds turn that way. (Just me understanding things here, not that you don't already know all of this! :) )
Ah that iPad. Mind you, someone I know with one had it just go kaput, and a replacement that wouldn't charge too! However that replacement has been absolutely fine, so just luck I guess. :)
Wishing you and Tula more adventure walks, and hope it's otherwise all nice over there. :)
I can see your progress though, there! Keeping the positive stuff in your mind, too. I guess it can crowd out the negative perhaps, if/when our minds turn that way. (Just me understanding things here, not that you don't already know all of this! :) )
Ah that iPad. Mind you, someone I know with one had it just go kaput, and a replacement that wouldn't charge too! However that replacement has been absolutely fine, so just luck I guess. :)
Wishing you and Tula more adventure walks, and hope it's otherwise all nice over there. :)
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Thanks, dancingfish,
I'm hurting right now. Somebody was rude and dismissive at a store. I did nothing wrong. Just being a customer. This person couldn't honor my goodness.
Feeling like I also don't or don't want to belong to my family.
My sister's history of meanness may or may not be history.
Oh, that's right. I'm taking the loss of fairness here! That's what I live for!!!
It fucking hurts. So much that was never, would never be my reasonable choice.
I'm going to do some more standing up for myself. I get to be my experience. Nobody else gets to be me or make me like them with their lowness, pettiness, meanness.
I get to be the awesome person I am. They can can be small and try to short me. I 'm not coming up short. I'm standing tall. Comforting and reassuring myself. Being all the good things I am. Nobody takes that away from me. They take it away from themselves when they criticize me. I'm not their sad opinion.
I don't take this fall. I don't want a phone call this month with sister. She's much too late with her kindness, offering me my brother's guitar. I needed it when he died. Maybe I wouldn't have broken my back with SH/SU attempt. This freaking hurts.
I get to be me. I'm not who any mean person wants me to be so they can feel superior. They aren't superior to me. Not my downfall. Their compulsion to put someone down. Not my responsibility to fall on and destroy myself with it. I'm not all about hurt. I'm about joy, intelligence, talent, beauty.
I'm not taking losses that are NOT mine.
I'm hurting right now. Somebody was rude and dismissive at a store. I did nothing wrong. Just being a customer. This person couldn't honor my goodness.
Feeling like I also don't or don't want to belong to my family.
My sister's history of meanness may or may not be history.
Oh, that's right. I'm taking the loss of fairness here! That's what I live for!!!
It fucking hurts. So much that was never, would never be my reasonable choice.
I'm going to do some more standing up for myself. I get to be my experience. Nobody else gets to be me or make me like them with their lowness, pettiness, meanness.
I get to be the awesome person I am. They can can be small and try to short me. I 'm not coming up short. I'm standing tall. Comforting and reassuring myself. Being all the good things I am. Nobody takes that away from me. They take it away from themselves when they criticize me. I'm not their sad opinion.
I don't take this fall. I don't want a phone call this month with sister. She's much too late with her kindness, offering me my brother's guitar. I needed it when he died. Maybe I wouldn't have broken my back with SH/SU attempt. This freaking hurts.
I get to be me. I'm not who any mean person wants me to be so they can feel superior. They aren't superior to me. Not my downfall. Their compulsion to put someone down. Not my responsibility to fall on and destroy myself with it. I'm not all about hurt. I'm about joy, intelligence, talent, beauty.
I'm not taking losses that are NOT mine.
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All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.