Life of There: 2020
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Hate to hear that your day went off the rails and especially that you didn't get to connect with your friend. That's so disappointing.
CPTSD is indeed the pits. The dregs, for sure, with its lousy symptoms and the way those impact.
Hope everything calms down for you, there and that your phone shows back up asap. And that technology starts cooperating.
Been sitting here a few minutes with your post. Wishing there were the right words. Caring that it's this hard. Sending you warm, quiet thoughts. Handing you a pretty quilted coverlet and wishing you comfort.
CPTSD is indeed the pits. The dregs, for sure, with its lousy symptoms and the way those impact.
Hope everything calms down for you, there and that your phone shows back up asap. And that technology starts cooperating.
Been sitting here a few minutes with your post. Wishing there were the right words. Caring that it's this hard. Sending you warm, quiet thoughts. Handing you a pretty quilted coverlet and wishing you comfort.
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I hate it too. I really really hate it. Hoping the phone appears quickly. I've lost something of mine here too. Been looking for it for two days. So blasted mad. I remember using it two night ago. Grr.
Sending fresh air to clear your mind and hopefully jar your memory or give ideas. Getting it. Totally stinks.
Sending fresh air to clear your mind and hopefully jar your memory or give ideas. Getting it. Totally stinks.
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Thank you both.
Phone showed up. Too late for a call last night . Then Had Facebook contact with another friend later on.
Was sent a cartoon on Facebook today . oh I don't know, I made a dissenting comment and was called a humorless prude. Still heart pounding want to cry oh I did cry going to cry again.
Also, have to say it hurts to come here and supportively two people on their threads and be ignored, often more than once. I miss responding to posts sometimes two . If somebody ignores me more than once on their threads, I have to leave because it hurts to be ignored.
Don't want to be in this world at the moment. Not feeling self-destructive just don't want to be in this world, and not because of covid-19.
Phone showed up. Too late for a call last night . Then Had Facebook contact with another friend later on.
Was sent a cartoon on Facebook today . oh I don't know, I made a dissenting comment and was called a humorless prude. Still heart pounding want to cry oh I did cry going to cry again.
Also, have to say it hurts to come here and supportively two people on their threads and be ignored, often more than once. I miss responding to posts sometimes two . If somebody ignores me more than once on their threads, I have to leave because it hurts to be ignored.
Don't want to be in this world at the moment. Not feeling self-destructive just don't want to be in this world, and not because of covid-19.
All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.
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It hurts to be here, too, right now.
Seriously, do not want anybody to feel guilty. It just hurts. What more can I say?
Seriously, do not want anybody to feel guilty. It just hurts. What more can I say?
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Oh its hard to feel misunderstood and unappreciated. So sorry you are feeling that way today. Some the world feels very unfair and unkind. Wishing you peace and love that you can feel how very much you are appreciated and wanted here.
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So glad you've got your phone back! So scary for that to go missing.
I'm sorry someone said something so disparaging to you. And that the affects from that are lingering.
General people online are not the gentlest souls. I think folks forget there are real people with tender feelings on the other end. Not excusing anyone, just observing that I see so much harsh behavior in the day we're living in.
Sorry to hear this place doesn't feel good either at the moment.And that something's hurt your heart.
I hope you can have a gentle evening and that some soothing will come. I hope you'll be on the mend soon from things that sting the soul.
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I'm sorry someone said something so disparaging to you. And that the affects from that are lingering.
General people online are not the gentlest souls. I think folks forget there are real people with tender feelings on the other end. Not excusing anyone, just observing that I see so much harsh behavior in the day we're living in.
Sorry to hear this place doesn't feel good either at the moment.And that something's hurt your heart.
I hope you can have a gentle evening and that some soothing will come. I hope you'll be on the mend soon from things that sting the soul.
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Hoping you are finding peace and calm. That you are feeling okay and connection. Please know I'm thinking of you. That I care.
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It's Saturday morning and I hope your day has started well, there. I'm also hoping you've managed to get good quality sleep the last while.
Wishing for you and Tula a nice weekend. Hoping there is some real-life connection in your world. Plus good encouragement and comfort, too! You're on my mind and in my heart.
Wishing for you and Tula a nice weekend. Hoping there is some real-life connection in your world. Plus good encouragement and comfort, too! You're on my mind and in my heart.
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heavy sigh,
Hi, and thanks for staying with me here, coconuts and Watercolor.
I stopped dripping and drinking the morning espresso. Really sets me up for jangly nerves. Then the triggers. ...well, you get it.
Have started a new-ish webinar, interesting and going to watch some more tonight. Doing a bit of digital art.
Much nicer day, sunny low 50s. Told M what bothers me that she does. Since she doesn't get it, I told her I"d point it out in the future if she does it.
M, B, and I went to Cafe for takeout coffee. I tree. treated.
Thinking a lot about takeout food. Chinese? Salad? Japanese?
Hi, and thanks for staying with me here, coconuts and Watercolor.
I stopped dripping and drinking the morning espresso. Really sets me up for jangly nerves. Then the triggers. ...well, you get it.
Have started a new-ish webinar, interesting and going to watch some more tonight. Doing a bit of digital art.
Much nicer day, sunny low 50s. Told M what bothers me that she does. Since she doesn't get it, I told her I"d point it out in the future if she does it.
M, B, and I went to Cafe for takeout coffee. I tree. treated.
Thinking a lot about takeout food. Chinese? Salad? Japanese?
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I deserve better than survival.
I deserve better than survival.
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Great that you found a webinar that is of interest.
Nice that you connected with friends and neighbors and hopefully M can be more aware of what she does that is rude and upsetting. She might not even recognize that she is doing it. Hopefully it helps the situation to just address it head on.
Yeah takeout. I've eated a lot of takeout.
Meeting up with friends today in a parking lot. We will keep pour distance. We aren't too worried. But we want to follow rules. Friend feels stuck and just needs something to help her connect with us. Says she misses us terribly. We are co-workers and are used to seeing each other and eating lunch together every work day. We ended up at the school at same time about a week ago and saw each other. It made me so very very happy. I felt like a little kid with all that excitement. What I was surprised about was how depressed I got when it ended. It seemed to make me so much sadder to know we wouldn't see each other for another 3 weeks minimum. We are going to try some zoom game nights too. We have to do something. These are the people I decompress with and now to not have that release is hard.
Hmm seemed to go off on a tangent about myself sorry.
I do hope you continue to find connection and that release I was talking about. Love that you are working on some digital art and growing your talents and mind.
Nice that you connected with friends and neighbors and hopefully M can be more aware of what she does that is rude and upsetting. She might not even recognize that she is doing it. Hopefully it helps the situation to just address it head on.
Yeah takeout. I've eated a lot of takeout.
Meeting up with friends today in a parking lot. We will keep pour distance. We aren't too worried. But we want to follow rules. Friend feels stuck and just needs something to help her connect with us. Says she misses us terribly. We are co-workers and are used to seeing each other and eating lunch together every work day. We ended up at the school at same time about a week ago and saw each other. It made me so very very happy. I felt like a little kid with all that excitement. What I was surprised about was how depressed I got when it ended. It seemed to make me so much sadder to know we wouldn't see each other for another 3 weeks minimum. We are going to try some zoom game nights too. We have to do something. These are the people I decompress with and now to not have that release is hard.
Hmm seemed to go off on a tangent about myself sorry.
I do hope you continue to find connection and that release I was talking about. Love that you are working on some digital art and growing your talents and mind.
Be the Light in someone's night.