... after all this time!

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... after all this time!

Post by jimscarlet » Thu Jan 31, 2019 10:02 pm

Greetings Friends,
For many,many years,off and on I would have back pain which I just
endured;then couple days ago,and today,the penny dropped. I was LEANING forward
about 4inches off the vertical,which meant my back had to compensate,thus the pain.
Becausseee,dear m+f would scream at me:"You fuckin hurry up,ya bastard!".
That was daily,every,single,day. I was so terrified of them,so utterly terrified.
God,I feel such compassion for little me,he suffered so much and was so alone with
those 2 lunatics--correction,2 STUPID lunatics!
So now,I'll have to re-teach myself how
to stand and walk properly,vertically.I've been trying it tonight in kitchen--no wonder
I used to say to self,after cooking,or doing dishes,"Don't know how I keep getting sore
back when come out of there". Jesus,talk about awareness! All my weight was on the
BALLS of the feet,when should have been on HEELS!
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Re: ... after all this time!

Post by there » Sat Feb 02, 2019 1:06 am

sounds great that you've discovered this about your posture. I am learning to pull my neck back in, because I hyperextend it all the time.
“Courage is an inner resolution to go forward despite obstacles." Rev Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

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Re: ... after all this time!

Post by earthhorse » Fri Feb 08, 2019 2:19 pm

((((((((((((((( Jim Scarlet )))))))))))))))))

It's so strange how the most profound hurts can hide in plain sight. Locked into our bodies, our very being. Such amazing work to recognize this now, finally addressing this lifetime of pain.

For me though I feel a little selfish, its just wonderful to see your name.

Wishing you the best in all things.

"One kind word can warm three winter months"

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Re: ... after all this time!

Post by jimscarlet » Sat Feb 09, 2019 10:41 pm

Oh,Dear Earth Horse,
My dear friend,so nice to see you too! I mention your name
often in my reveries of days gone by--Oh,I wish you the absolute BEST!!!
Deepest Respect,
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