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Re: Something Simple
Posted: Sat Nov 17, 2018 8:01 pm
by there
IMA,
Happy Belated Birthday! Sorry I missed the actual date.
Giving oneself respect and self-compassion every day-- that's great!
Always like to read your ideas and experiences, IMA.
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Fri Nov 23, 2018 5:14 am
by IMA
Thank you there
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Fri Nov 23, 2018 5:25 am
by IMA
Today I think about this person I like...
Then the thoughts of my past flood in
Like I'm to unclean for you...
I can't kiss you on the lips... won't even try it no. That hurts but you'll thank you later
My soul is covered with stains of disgust and shame...how could I possibly share soul ties with you
A crush is all I will ever get to...
I'm just tired of being so gross, but this part of me will never fade, so let it only stay with me... die with me.
I know I'm not these things but the beliefs follows me everywhere , all the time.
I had a nightmare a day ago, couldn't move my body when it happened again....
Today crying feels good
A plus I love finding away around lifes hardships... a kiss on the cheek gave me clarity
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Fri Nov 23, 2018 5:27 am
by IMA
Good videos overall with a little sadness.
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Wed Nov 28, 2018 12:57 am
by there
IMA,
Thinking of you , reading along.
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Fri Nov 30, 2018 2:34 am
by wolfspirit
IMA,
Hoping you are doing okay and glad to read your posts.
Sorry there is a part of you that feels gross. Can the other parts of you soothe that part? Clean it, wash the grossness away?
Or maybe it feels gross to protect itself.
<3
ws
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Sun Feb 24, 2019 2:54 am
by IMA
Heart break is one of those pains that follows me in and out relationships....
Its final kicking in that I need to be alone and not look for love sighs...
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Mon Feb 25, 2019 3:09 am
by IMA
Today is just as hard since yesterday, but the way I look at it has changed. In time this pain will heal but for now it let my tears run down my face and keep me company as I fall asleep tonight.
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Fri Apr 19, 2019 2:23 am
by IMA
Life updates
I have two jobs
Me and soulmate at slowly reconnecting
I have been talking about alot of trauma in therapy with my new therapist
Still not having sex.. sex is linked to my traumatic experiences so I'm still processing that out so no partner yet
Family members are supportive assholes still in the making and I cant wait until my credit is good enough to move out
I wish my best friend of 17 years made time for me for a simple phone call now a days but I have been coping by going onto 7cups
I'm still over weight so I may start a diet soon to help me lose 60 pounds
Re: Something Simple
Posted: Sat Apr 20, 2019 11:56 am
by earthhorse
Please be gentle with you.
Sounds like so much is going right. Positive and strong.
Would like to say, if okay? Please be okay with your body. Even if you can not love it. You deserve acceptance. you deserve health - better to give this the focus. Your body's size can be because of lots of things, and it can be healthy at any size. Focus on being kind good and loving to your body. Choose things your body needs. See addictions. Is it okay to let them go? If not then also accept this even while you acknowledge it. You have important reasons why. When you are ready things change, because you will have understood what was holding you back, and it will be time to let it go.
Hoping you can get your own place soon!
EH