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there,
Reading along and catching up on the family struggles.
Your S sounds like she almost doesn't realize what she does to hurt you, yet I'm sure you've tried to explain it many times.
I have been in those situations before, and the pain is very real.
For me, once I feel disrespected or degraded, I shut down and the negative thoughts flood in. It can be anyone's words or actions. People I don't even know can bring me down.
It all of the put-downs and insults we grew up on.

Glad to hear you two were able to find common ground and let the feelings go.
Hoping the phone situation is worked out for the better, soon.

hugs,

ws

Dear there


Really hoping phone company security fixes the problem - it can be hard to deal with some places - inexhaustible supply of patience, wow!

May you gain strength to play piano

Sent from stormy weather. Huge difference from yesterday's warmth


Caring hugs

Did practice piano, thanks, Fleur!

Now near tears cuz I opened a collections notice for a bill I didn't know I even. owed! $27! to hospital. All of my bills supposed to be covered with health safety net. I would gerbils, then call hospital business Office about them. I would be told I owed nothing. This happened a few times. So I started to disregard the bills because I figured I was covered! Kill. Me. Now.

I have the rest of the weekend to agonize over it until I can call their office. Believe me I'm agonizing.

Of course there's no one to talk about it to. Thank goodness for here.

Really freaking bummed out.

Hello there


Good for you that you played piano

Sorry to know about an account you had no knowledge of owing. Hopefully is all worked out very easily

May you calm using your favourite methods and enjoy only happy dreams


Caring hugs

ws, sorry I didn't see your post until now.
Thank you for describing how you react to negativity from even strangers. You put it so succinctly. I never thought of the shutting down part as such. And that's what I do while I recycle that negativity.
In my case, it's probably not just , Family of origin negativity. I've been screamed at yelled at quite a bit in my adult life. To the point of flashbacks of it. No more flashbacks for longtime. This is the new frontier,
Maybe soon I will list insulting putdowns from childhood.

Fleur, gerbils ha ha ha. Get bills. But you figured that out.
I can still call the hospital Financial office I'm just telling the truth and just tell them the truth. And tell them about PTSD because it doesn't help in the situation either.
Did help to talk with my brother about it. Am calm now.
Had some interesting dreams that I don't remember upon waking.

Did maybe Half hour of yoga last evening. Including arm strengthening. Then I did the hardest PT exercise and that's done. To done!
Makes my head feel clearer today.
Going to listen to sermon on radio now. Have decluttering to do. Probably shopping for a few things for vacay. Smile
I want to do piano early-ish today.
Thank you for reading. Got kind of long.

Trying veto relax. I don't want to be passive today. If I try to relax, I start getting restless. Not at all fun.And it's cold out.

Ok, grabbing yoga bolster behind my bed. Will look on YouTube for some restorative yoga to do.

it's going to be moment-by-moment for a while today.

Dear there


Trust you enjoy broadcast sermon

Moment- by-moment can be useful to stay in present for me, so hopefully so for you

Glad you shared bill debt collection with your brother and it eased tension. Agree, stating truth of circumstances is best way to go

Piano, exercise, purchasing for time away sounds great

May all on your to do list move to done list


Caring hugs

And now I'm popping in over at there's house. (I just visited Fleur's)
I just love reading how you are doing.
I don't love the struggles, just how you two handle things and problem solve.

I totally get the bills thing. There's been this one charge for a home warranty bill that's haunting me.
I've had three people tell me its not in their system, yet I still get the bill.
Then, I called again and a fourth person says, Oh, I just read the notes and yeah, your card was declined so that's why you owe it.

Oh, so apparently I have to do their job for them as ask them to read through the history of transactions?
Grrrr

I hope the hospital can waive that charge, and I'm glad talking with your b helped.

I love yoga, btw.
I go to a class twice a week that is yoga and pilates combined. Sometimes, I catch myself shedding tears because of the energy movement.

hugs,

ws

Hi, Fleur,ws!
Just leaving the latest here for now. Packing for time away.

Smart phone found lying screen down by bathroom sink! Is fine.
Paid bill collector $50. The hospital does not do any credit reporting, agent answered!
Bye for now.

there,
Will this be a trip you want to take, or have to take?
Hooray for the phone discovery. That's a relief.

Hope tomorrow is a good day for you and Tula.

hugs,

ws