My liver is "NORMAL"!
I am so relieved! BUT I ACTUALLY GAINED ANOTHER 10 LBS. SINCE MY LAST VISIT a month and a half ago!!
Dr. B told me that IF it had been something serious, he would have called me. He agreed with me that I'm experiencing some "water (fluid) retention". DUH!!!! He's sticking to his ideas of calories in/calories out, which is the exact opposite
of what I'm doing on keto. I'm trying to limit insulin spiking instead of
the (as I put it to him) "antiquated" ideas of cutting calories, which does NOT work 98-99% of the time and only makes me too hungry to fast. It is like he feels that I'm in denial re: my weight. I'm back up (from 250 lbs. at this time last year to 275 today) and my legs are ACHING, too much to even walk without pain. I asked him if he'd give me a prescription for physical therapy and he agreed. It's for "my lower back and conditioning", whatever that means, but I'd like to go to reduce the fluid retention in my legs and ankles and feet. I'm also hitting the internet tonight to study up on "fluid reduction" advice there.
He also said that it was "just my age".
I do need to move more, but he's taking the attitude of the poorly informed but comfortable well-paid doctors that are standing in the way of the new wave of change that is coming, just waiting for someone to lay Big Money on their outstretched palm while their eyes are tightly closed and cotton balls are stuffed into their ears. I feel like I'm not the one who is pitifully uninformed, but there does seem to be "something wrong", even if it is simply water retention. He also inplied that I am "taking in too many calories" and need to eat LESS FAT
, for Pete's sake!!
"Count your calories and eat less!" OMG!! That is such old school thinking!! He is giving me such purely rote and bad advice that I'm thinking of not seeing him again. He probably won't even notice the difference.
If I don't find a doctor who "gets it" (and soon) that can see that eating ONE
MEAL A DAY (usually just a pork chop or a chicken thigh or 2 eggs, etc. + a cup of cooked [and approved] veggies, like broccoli, cabbage, spinach, or cauliflower and maybe a small avocado salad or bowl of homemade "cream of" --- soup + a plain sugar free almond muffin and a cuppa creamed Bulletproof coffee for "dessert") until just
satisfied and then fast
for the next 20-24 HOURS, well, I give up!! (The doctor, not the WOE!)
I eat until JUST BARELY full. Then I fast. And I do that until I get hungry again...the next day
! But he's treating me like I'm heading for McDonald's for a Big Mac with fries and a drink for 4 or 5 meals a day, gives me a tsk, tsk, tsk (SHAMING
ME!) when that is just not the case or how I am
eating! What I am concerned for is that I'm experiencing a WEIGHT GAIN
on such a Spartan diet (WOE) that I've explained here, and I think that there is probably some reason
for concern! I've been at this since Nov. 2017 (15½ months now!!) and I should be LOSING weight right now! I eat like a dietician's dream, but I gain
weight! It is said by many that exercise is good, BUT NOT NECESSARY
to lose weight with the keto WOE.
It is really tough
trying to do this new weight loss system with so many others having a rollicking success with it
while I consistently gain
, week after week, month after month. To have no support from either of my last two doctors doesn't help. Listening to the two of them regurgitating their obviously limited "knowledge" of nutrition and dietary guidelines to me is frustrating at best! It is barely touched on for an afternoon in med. school, and what is taught to these med. students/potential doctors is dead wrong
, and is harming their patients!
It was mostly started in the 1950s by Ancel Keys (whose research was financed
by a grant from Kellogg's) and Kellogg's, THE CEREAL COMPANY (hence, 6-11 servings
of "whole grains", bread, pasta, rice, and corn
) and in around 1980, the Food Pyramid was okayed by none other than Senator
George McGovern and his cronies (NOT scientists or researchers)! Then add on the drug companies greedily producing Metformin, insulin, and other diabetic drugs to urge doctors to sell/prescribe them to their patients, and there's the deadly morbid obesity and diabetes explosion that we are seeing today! (Insulin is the "fat storage" hormone! High blood sugars, ie, Type 2 diabetes, is a SYMPTOM of hyperinsulinemia, aka high insulin, and insulin resistance, aka a pot belly or a beer belly, all of which is caused by too much sugar/starches/grains/sodas/beer. This has been known for over 100+ yrs.) Two thirds of the USA population are obese or morbidly obese, even children. They have ceased calling it "Adult Onset Diabetes" since kids are developing it now, with every chance to succumb to its horrible crippling diseases: blindness, amputations, heart disease, arthritis, cancers, you name it. Here's where I've learned SOME of this info:
www dot ketogenic-diet-resource dot com/usda-food-pyramid dot html
In 1968, the Senate appointed Senator George McGovern to chair the "Select Committee on Nutrition and Human Needs" with the goal of wiping out hunger and malnutrition in the US. By 1969, the committee had succeeded in wiping out malnutrition, and wanting to secure further funding, it began looking into other areas of health and nutrition.
McGovern and several members of his staff had become familiar with the Ancel Keys' influence on the American Heart Association, which was proposing that fat and cholesterol consumption should be lowered for better heart health, even though the link between the two had never been proven in any scientific study. With this focus, the creation of today's USDA Food Pyramid began. As Gary Taubes writes in his article The Soft Science of Dietary Fat:
"It was Senator George McGovern's bipartisan, non-legislative Select Committee on Nutrition and Human Needs--and, to be precise, a handful of McGovern's staff members--that almost single-handedly changed nutritional policy in this country and initiated the process of turning the dietary fat hypothesis into dogma."
In January 1977, after listening to the testimony of Ancel Keys and other doctors and scientists intent on promoting the unsupported Dietary Fat-Heart hypothesis, the Committee published the "Dietary Goals for the United States" recommending that all Americans reduce their fat, saturated fat and cholesterol consumption, and increase their carbohydrate consumption to 55-60% of daily calories.
Upon release of the guidelines, the cattle, egg, and dairy industries went ballistic. Congress was telling people that animal products were bad for health!
The intense pressure from these industries forced the committee into revising the report in late 1977. But the damage had been done, and American meat, egg and milk consumption continued to fall.
Because the goals of this document were so different, the USDA did not adopt them at first. In 1980, the USDA partnered with the Health and Human Services department to issue the first edition of the Dietary Guidelines for Americans, which eventually became the USDA Food Pyramid.
You only need to follow the money...
I wrote my Dr. B a nice email before I went to see him on Jan. 3rd. I had referred him to the website BeALoser dot Today dot com
because it is a large YouTube series that covers ALL these topics done in about 15 min. increments. It explains it in depth and in plain and simple language that most people can understand. All of the "calories in, calories out" and low fat nonsense (he calls it the Calorie Restriction As Primary diet or CRAP diet
) is debunked and the ketogenic WOE is explained. Had my Dr. read or studied any
of this before my visit to him he never would have dreamed to blurt out as he scooted out the door smiling like he was trying to be "cool", "Remember! Calories in, calories out!" and he was gone!
I felt like choking him! If I didn't need support so badly it wouldn't be so irritating, but I do and it is!!
But my problem remains - why, oh why, is my body shrinking and divets forming all over my body, but I'm GAINING weight? Fluid retention? OK, then WHY??? Dr. B says it's just my age and dismisses it as such, but I have seen research study after research study after testimonials up the wah-zoo singing the praises of this WOE REGARDLESS OF AGE
!!!!! Even I have a healthy liver and kidneys now and no sign of arthritis anymore and not even a UTI in a year when before this WOE they were very frequent and problematic. So WHY am I not losing weight on this? I should! I know for a FACT that I'm doing it right! VERY FRUSTRATING!! But what are my options at this point? Sheesh!
KEEP CALM AND KETO ON! <-----I have a shirt that says this!
========================================(Wed. evening ♥just after my OMAD dinner♥)
I just saw some things on Dr. Phil tonight as I had my "one-person dinner party" (it's always me and Dr. Phil as my guest
). He had this to say to his
*Not everyone you lose is a loss.
*You can't lose what you didn't have.
This really set me back on my heels! He was speaking with some other child abuse survivors, so I could identify. The incidents may have been different, but the results on these now-grown children was the same as I've experienced. When Dr. Phil said the above, WOW!
I have been feeling quite a sense of loss from time to time re: MD. After all, she is
my mother (
) and judging from my father's passing in 2011, when you're gone, you're GONE. This is the only time I possibly have left with her on earth.
But with her and my histories...is that such a bad
thing?? "NOT EVERYONE YOU LOSE IS A LOSS." OH MY! And she is not being neglected
in any way. (Well, maybe by my dear brother, but that is their game and has nothing to do with me.) She has in her possession my phone number that I've had for nearly 20 yrs., yet she never calls
. Well, ME anyway. My brother gets multiple calls from her every day! So many that they screen her calls and if it's from her, they don't answer. So no, not everyone you lose is a loss.
And she's still in denial re: the child abuse. "Oh, for Pete's sake, ____________! I NEVER
DID ANYTHING LIKE THAT!" And that's what the "mother" did today on Dr. Phil as her grown children accused her of the horrors that they suffered through. Nearly verbatim!! None of us had the loving, tender, gentle, and kind "cookie baking Mom" that we all longed for, and after 72 yrs. on this earth, I don't believe I ever will (except for that Mom that is in me). So why go see her? "Not everyone you lose is a loss." Sadly true. And "You can't lose what you didn't have." I can still "see" her in my mind's eye in her small room, sitting on her small couch next to her wheelchair, with two regular sized closets and an attached bath, and by the window, a table and chair she never uses and a TV with Gunsmoke playing on it. Funny, while my dad was alive, that was his
show and she couldn't stand it, but I think it makes her feel closer to him when she watches it. No, I don't need to revisit all of that. NO! If she wanted
to see me, she'd call me. Even when I used to call her (faithfully!), she'd make an excuse to get off the phone.
But then immediately the thought comes crashing into my mind: Yeah, but
...WHAT IF YOU ARE SORRY
THAT YOU'VE MISSED THIS LAST OPPORTUNITY? It's an absolutely selfish thought. It has nothing to do with her and everything to do with me. I am really conflicted here. It feels like a LOT of self-induced guilt and shame vs
. a need to protect myself against further harm from her.
So confusing! I think I'll sleep on it...