While I try to figure out the best place to post my story (and while I build up the courage to do so), I thought a softball might be a good idea
My story is a complicated one that spans more than ten years. I am a survivor of CSA and have extensive DA. I cannot remember any real detail of my childhood, sometimes I can recall a snapshot of a memory (good or bad) but if I try to hold or examine it, the memory fades away. As I started work with a therapist, I realized that it's not just childhood memory's that are lost- even events that happened a few weeks ago have the same slippery feel.
I also have great difficulty feeling any type of emotion- happiness, joy, anger, sadness- right now these are just words to me with no weight behind them. Sometimes I feel something start to come, then wham, any feeling gets pushed down.
Somehow, despite how broken I think I am, I have had good success in life. I am married, have two kids and a successful career.
As my name suggests, I am trying to learn how to heal, but progress seems so slow most days.
