Im A horrible human being

[BrokenButterflyWings]

That's all

[mustard seed]

BBFW,
Somehow I can not believe or agree with this statement.
ms

[BrokenButterflyWings]

When I was little, I promised myself that I would never be like any of them...But I'm just like my aunt. It's why I don't have any children...I would give anything for a child, but I don't want to make any children go through what I did....but I'm still really mean sometimes, and violent...I hate myself because I see so much of her in me.

[mustard seed]

Hmm,

How to get her out then. That's the question.
Perhaps by tending to broken wings? Whatever that entails.

Still does not make you a horrible human being- a hurt one perhaps, not perfect. Like me.

Children learn what they live-that's the saying anyway. Any chance to learn something new?

You won't convince me BrokenButterflyWings, I have seen something beautiful in you.

Even the tiniest bit of good can grow into something big and you already have way more than a tiny bit.
Just imagine how big your goodness can become.
See yourself flying with wings that are not only healed but enlarged as well.
I can envision it.
Take good care and be gentle with yourself,
much respect,
ms

[hopeful]

BBFW

wanted to jump in and echo ms wise words.
nothing to add just sending support.
you are beautiful inside and out.

hopeful

[facingmytruth]

Agree with the above ,you are not a horrible person ,I know its hard to believe that for ourselves that's why I find coming here helps because others don't see in me what I do ,and I hope one day we will all believe the good things others can see in us,take care

[silentlistener]

Hi BB,

I understand.
I think this awareness is good. It doesn't make you a horrible person. A horrible person wouldn't noticce, or if they noticed wouldn't care enough to do something about it.
No, you're not a horrible humn being.

Sl

[BrokenButterflyWings]

I don't like to yell. And I don't like to break things. I don't like what I think about either. But I do it anyway when I get mad. And it makes me want to hurt myself because it makes me feel better. And then I feel stupid because I've hurt myself.

[mustard seed]

BBfW,
Please read my post "Our Deepest Fear". It's actually a Nelson Mandela quote and very true.
I keep it posted in my office to remind me.

PS- good for others too if you haven't read it.
Much caring Butterfly,
ms

[BrokenButterflyWings]

where do I find the post ms? I'd love to read it, but I dont know where to look. Thanks