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Lovely to read from you there, wolfspirit, recover. Thank you
Well, inspection was okayish. Two women agreed I'd made efforts. Biggest concerns - keeping garden under control and Soxy's litter. They took photos. Which means I'd better make more inroads into unpacking, pronto
In much pain. Sh again. Clean toilet now soiled once more. Put fresh sheets on bed - they now stink. Realise that sh is "helpful" um, not really right word, on various levels. All end up hurting but ... I use sh when stressed, relieved (I'm not about to become homeless), have inside stuff that I might not be aware even exists, gives excuse for my lack of physical participation ... Possibly others. Ah, big one - a not good enough person as evidenced by lack of family communication, leaving husband, little contact with son, no real career, few financial savings. Taps into "I do not deserve"
Migraine threatening. Head sore all time. Just there are days when it is a background hum
Took unwanted clothes to Church op shop bin - used a suitcase. Then had dinner with a few ladies at a Mexican restaurant. Lovely chattering but totally lost all sense of time, then direction, so I ended up at bus depot half an hour after the last bus on my route. Fortunately taxi fare was much less than feared. Driver obviously used most direct roads. Home and in bed well before a bus would be enroute
Despite Soxy being on top of me, feel isolated
Tomorrow in big city to see student as part of research then book group at evening. Friday is neurologist followed by dinner at an Italian café. Really hoping Dr J can give me solid diagnosis, treatment plan - preferably not involving multiple botox injections
Wishing you each a lovely day full of special moments
Onward to a safe community for all people in which to thrive ~ gentle hugs [if okay] ~ Fleur
Fleur,
Glad the inspection is over.
I understand the sh pattern and the discouraging cycle of clean/soiled/clean/soiled...can be frustrating and overwhelming.
I'm really hoping the headaches will lift soon. They are hard to manage. Chronic pain requires soooo much strength to handle. I'm sorry you deal with it.
Sounds like you have a busy couple of days coming up! Very happy you are getting out and about and doing things you want to with things you don't.
Just want to share this with you. My T told me about him.There's a comic named Mike Birbiglia. He has a sleepwalking condition. He did a show, movie, book called "Sleepwalk with Me". If you google that --sleepwalk with me, it will bring up his site.
T told me that he told how, in his sleep, he dropped out of a 3rd story window. He talks about this and I guess how he deals with it in a humorous way.
In the US, you can rent the dvd online from Amazon for $3.
I did tell you that I have sleepwalked twice.
Thinking of you and Soxy. Hugs, pats.
All women are beautiful. Period.
I deserve better than survival.
Saw the lovely female researcher on Thursday, but came home afterwards because I felt drained by 3+ hour session
Dinner was lovely last night and a lady drove me to the gate when I said I'd like a lift to station
Dr J was very informative. I have yet to Google post viral infection auto immune disorder. Can cause inflammatory response in any organ - often skin is affected. In my case, it has attacked brain. He told me my "minor" symptoms after I shared the main facts
Have to take script for six tablets to pharmacist on Monday. See neurologist in four weeks
Cheers
Onward to a safe community for all people in which to thrive ~ gentle hugs [if okay] ~ Fleur
