thank you, recover
sad to know we're not alone in this (trump stuff) - er, um, i mean, good to know we're alone, sad that we are ... so affected.
& {ct!} - yes! endlessly frustrating! wow. ya nailed it. hypermobility - spose i could join the circus(?)
- i can put my legs behind head w/out any stretching 1st. & ... <snirt!> most lower extremity joints are 'hyper', altho most upper ones arent 'hyper' enuff - limited ROM w/ arms/shoulders ( & neck due to fusion). <sigh!>
so, the (potential) new ins lady came by. i dunno .... the whole thing seems .. kinda 'pushy' - & i cant even explain why i feel that way.
its set up similar to the kaiser model - everything under one roof - which i spose would be helpful. ALL my care would hafta be thru em. their providers are all employees of em, & they're also contracted w/ one of the 2 major hosps/groups here - but of course, NOT the one i use, so ALL my drs would change. im ok w/ that, except for psyche stuff - id either hafta change those too, or pay outta pocket.
on plus side, slop is covered, & 'durable' equip. they have social stuff. transpo provided for all appts & activities. (including med delivery!) they have nurses & others that do home visits. they offer 'home help' w/ personal care & lite housekeeping. probly sum other stuff. ya get .... a dr, center director, clinic & home nurse, PT,OT, speech therapy as needed, s/w, dietian, health care aide & transpo rep. it IS MUCH more 'comprehensive' than my current ins, & im leanin towrds it... kinda, i think. AND .... i wouldna hafta 'fight the same fight' every time (yr) that ins changes.
esp w/ trump in office, i think this mite actually work better for me.
on the neg side...... i guess its just ... the similarity to kaiser (whom i would NEVER pick!!) - they're the ones who kept mis-dx'n my arm & back pain (which was actually my neck ... & the fusion) they 'od'd me on motrin - ive 'exceeded my lifetime dosage' on that crap.
the lady did say that i couldna be a med mj cuz they frown on that - i told her that'd be a prob for me. she double checked once she left - & called to say it IS ok, but they wont pay for it (bummer, lol - wouldna expect they would)
she also sez i *shouldna* be payin any preimiums or co pays w/ my current ins (duh! - well, tell current ins that!!)
tried callin my s/w to see if she'd gotten anywhere w/ her inquiries bout this ... guess maybe they're closed for st paddys day? (they're a catholic org). but i DO wanna touch base w/ her, b4 i make my decision. the new lady sez she' ll call me on tues to see what im thinkin, if i wanna move forward w/ this - i DO wanna see their facility, get a better idea of their drs, etc
im pretty sure the 'trade offs' would be worth it; mainly, its my pdoc (& my t) that i wanna keep.
so, its alot to consider.
dozed off after that meetin, & ARGH!!! damn 'bad' dreams again (still!) - this one was in bio-moms house, w/ my X, & i was tryin to make mac & cheese, but he had lame stuff coverin the stove, weird stuff in oven. every time i tried to move stuff, it made a big mess. rumagin in fridge, same prob - his stuff was in my way, all over my stuff. i woke myself up, screaming at him ' I JUST WANNA EAT!!" so, 'on the surface', this dream 'makes sense'; in another way..... wtf!? im so s&t (sick & tierd) of these unsettlin dreams!!!!
plunk .... dunna wanna snuggle - hes never been a big snuggler, but would at least 'put up' w/ it. now, he's all squirellin around, & i dont wanna stress him out; otoh, i dont want him .... not gettin physical/emotional needs met. i moved one litterbox into the bathroom, since he insists on peein in there (but would go out to where box was to poop) dunno what this all about - suspect its .... more in reaction to my shit than an actual physical prob w/ him .... i dunno ...
goo is still bein a 'needful' girl, but at least she's stopped w/ that one particular vocalization that i hate (she's got bout 8 or 9) - this one is .. real 'echoy', whiney, plainitive - 'all is not rite w/ my world'. t thot its probly in reaction to my irratibility. so, if i use them to guage me.... im a lil better(?) but she's still jumpin up on me (which i kinda like - think its 'cute' - i call it 'pitta paws' - she'll put her front paws up on my back, & kinda 'pitta paw' & nose at me til i reach up to sckritch her whiskers ( she has WONDERFUL whiskers! & luscious lips, & exquisite eyes, & excellent ears, & chewy cheeks, & ..... we go thru all her 'head parts' (as opposed to body parts) another 'game' we play is when she yawns, i try to touch her tounge b4 she closes her mouht.
ok, so that dream has me wantin mac & cheese - off to see if i can ~make-a-mess~......
{{ISURVIVE!!}}
