REISHA 2017 (the journey continues...)

[Couragetoday]

Hi reisha,

Just checking in, hoping you are doing ok.
( think you and There are both brave to be discussing things. Hope you are both ok.)

The insurance stuff sounds frighteningly complicated. Not familiar with systems like that at all.

Very sorry to hear about the nightmares and can empathize. Complicates sleep for sure.

Glad you have plunk and goo with you.
Sending loads of caring.
CT

[recover]

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[reisha]

thank you, {courage!}, {recover!}

the ins is .. yes, frightening, complicated. the lady just called (i let it go to VM) to see if i wanna go forward w/ it. i *think* i do, (but!) - i dunnno, it kinda sounds ~too good to be true~. i spose if i dont like it, i can always switch back to what i currently have. i was really hopin/thinkin that ~sleepin on it~ would give me sum clarity. it dinna. im still just as confused as ever. havna heard back from my s/w yet either. <Note To Self: call her again!>
i guess im afraid-a makin a mistake(?)
&/or havin to start anew w/ .... (everything) - a new psyche team. im ambivalent bout my t, but really like my pdoc. - i think he's a weirdo (from a 'personal' viewpoint), but ino he cares & has my best interest 1st & foremost. from a therapeutic perspective, he's 'perfect'. my t, otoh ..... well, ino she cares, but as ive said, she's .... more concerned w/ my 'overall' well being, & (IMO) dunna really have a 'game plan' for or w/ me. guess i *need* to ~confront~ her bout that too - i kinda WANT 'homework', or sum sorta sumtin to be workin towards, if that makes sense?
really just wish ..... (When *IM* Queen......!!!) our system werent as broken as it is. <insert medical rant, followed by trump rant>

well, the litterbox in the bathroom was a bust - placed it where plunk was peein, (& really, the only space avail for it) & that just created .... a big mess in front-a my toilet, as litter got pawed out & then peed on. so, we're back to both boxes in front rooms. there's been one 'accident' in the bath, but it seems they're both more comfy, or used to it that way. ino it confused goo.
plunk - i cant figger out what his 'prob' is - he just wants to hang on his towel in the bathroom - when i scoop him up for a snuggle, he's all squirelly, 'anxious' to get back to his towel.

im *SLOWLY* puttin sum weight back on - 93lbs. ive been kinda hangin at around that (92.8) for a coupla-a wks now - frustrating! i see pcp t'marra; we'll see if the slop & copd (& other 'misc' ) meds get 'prior auth'd' or not. hmm, maybe thats part-a my hesitation w/ the other ins - i kinda wanna get everything 'set up' b4 i switch & i dunno, maybe thats foolish.....

sleep is still an elusive wish; & this damned 'dozey' sleep aint cuttin it - the weird/unsettlin dreams continue (argh!). last nite, i dinna sleep at all - was up all nite, & finally, around 5am, i gave up - went out to craft area & sorted beads til my butt hurt. ive had a kinda 1/2assed notta-nap, & am gettin tired, but wanna try to stay up til 'reg' bedtime.

[recover]

hi reisha,
you are dealing with a lot. the insurance thing is stressful ugh. huge huge medical and trump rants. (i can't even write his name without feeling sick.)
i hope you get better sleep tonight.
sorry can't say more, exhausted after long work day. but reading and sending love.
recover xo

[reisha]

thank you, {recover!}

well, pcp appt went well ( i think?)
all my concerns were voiced, & heard!! the copd meds *should* be avail for p/u w/in the coupla-a days. the slop mite take a bit longer, as probly more hoops to build & jump thru. but 'tween GI, nutri-gal, & pcp, it *should* get covered as a med necessity ( OMmmm....!!!) - i signed yet another waiver so these fux can talk w/ each other, share info, Get On The Same (damn) Page... we'll see....
the sweating & dizziness remains a mystery, maybe the lab test/bloodwork will give a hint; in the meantime.... *deal w/ it* ( bummer!)
told dr , as im askin what the treatment plan goin forward is that i really am not willin to play 'spaghetti throws' to see what sticks - no more not-so-merry-go-round of various specialists.
he relented, as ive gained sum weight, & as 'fair' as my health is (of the choices - excellent, good, fair or poor), im 'stable'. so, another round of labwork/blood tests, but if it comes back ok, i dont need to see him again for 6 months - YEA!!!

my 'aunty' friend finally replied, & a phone call followed - she's commin to visit next mon - we're gonna do a 'downtown crawl' - window shop, & check out sum-a the eateries we've been curious about. - & i'll finally give her her xmas gifts.

woke this morn in SEVERE pain - call it an 8 on the pain scale. that hasna happened in quite sum time. my body was shaking from the pain. (thank sprout for pain meds & sympathetic girl cats!) it kinda scared me. was afeared it would be a 'bad' day. but the meds worked (again, thank sprout!) & the pain went ... 'elsewhere'. had an ok day. (whew!) have no idea what caused it - dinna sleep weird or anyhting, & wasna 'stiff' upon waking, just ... unable to bend/stretch/move w/out excruciating flares. i'd only wish this on trump, or my aunt-mom, & maybe 1 or 2 other folx im currently quite irate at. so, no kynd hippie badges for me!!

[recover]

hi reisha,
so sorry you woke up in such pain! glad the meds helped and you felt better.
sounds like you are making progress with all the medical/insurance stuff. ugh.
love,
recover
p.s. re: trump...i literally feel traumatized by what has happened in our country and i don't use that word lightly. God help us and i am not even religious...

[Couragetoday]

Hi reisha,

The pain the other day sounded very intense. Real glad the meds and comforting from cats seemed to have made a difference.

Great also that your concerns were heard by pcp.

Wishing you a fun time window shopping this week.

Lots of caring,
CT

[Harmony]

Dear reshia,

I hope you are feeling better this morning. The political landscape looks different this morning in our country. It is almost like we woke up from a bad dream. Your health care and medical services and insurance will likely remain intact. No more war on the elderly, poor people and the ill. We have to speak up for ourselves and country fellows. I hear you reshia. This was a nationally scary moment.

Physical pain is really hard. Has the doctor done anything to improve things? Remember laughter is the best medicine. I hope you think this is funny. Spellcheck wants to make your name relish. LOL It made me laugh and was kinda cute.

with cheerful care,
Harmony

[DewDrop]

Hi reisha,

Feeling overwhelmed with how to comment. I have missed much, I'm sorry. I do need to say that it is great to hear of you gaining weight. Slow is fine, progress is wonderful. All the med/ins stuff makes me spin, like thinking about my taxes.
Hope pain stays low on the scale.

Thank you for your caring.

Tons of love to you,

DewDrop

[reisha]

thank you, courage, harmony, recover, dewd

poly-tick rant ahead:
harmony - thanks for yer words. this whole health care debacle - kinda nice to know that even the repubs cant get it together for a 'push-thru'. altho i find it odd - esp given the rhetoric - that in 7+ yrs, they hadna crafted a 'better' plan. inna way, tho, i can see what trumps talkin bout w/ sum areas havin no coverage - this was the 1st yr that ive ever seen such limited choice in my area. prior, there'd be oodles of diff ins co's, plans offered. this yr, only 2 co's, & a total of 4 plan choices ( for advantage plans,). i thot it due to the uncertianty of trump ( & still kinda do); yrt i spose it *could* also be what he's talkin about, the 'im/ex-plosion' of preimums, etc (as ive ranted about, mine have increased)

late fri nite, got texts from the goddess who 'winters' out here - she'd spot me a tix, another visiting goddess (who i dinna even know was out here, & who ive never met, but am close to, if that makes sense) was willin to p/u me, & PLEEEASE say yes.
so i did, more to finally meet the one goddess than to go to the show sat nite
& of course this wasna 'simple'. sat morn, i get a call from my 'aunty' friend, all atwitter, cu it was her wedding annversery, (she's a widow) the orig plan was for her & the 'wintering' one to have a low key show, but now aunty had to try to change dinner res, etc, etc ...
turned out, there was a toatl of SEVEN of us, & while it was nice to get cot up w/ folx ( & 'gossip' - which, well, i guess is inevitable, <sigh!>) it was a bit of a flustercluck, miss 'winters' kinda ... taking over, makin it more about her than auntys annaversry; 'winters' had brought us all .....
art glass from yet another goddess. these were specially maede touchstone, containing the cremains of our goddess friend who was killed by her neighbors car (ive talked bout that).
so it then became (for a bit) about our dead friend, other dead friends, & circlin back to auntys loss. very weird.
also ran into an ex-co-worker - (the gal who offered to cat sit, after id already hired 'kat') so, we made room for her too, & she launched into a list of dead co-workers. then 'gem' showed up - ARGH!!!! the goddess who drove me & i decided shortly after that we'd had our share of fun, & said our g'byes & left.
it was great to finally meet this woman, who ive 'known' online for more'n 20 yrs! we hit it off like soul mates, & plan to visit again while shes out here (for 2 wks)
it was nice to .... have an inpromptu goddess gathering; but i wish it'd been ... planned, known, not ... 'winters' kinda takin over (as shes' wont to do) - it shoulda been 'autnys' nite.
& the touchstone - we all shed a few ters at that, that our dead friends fam was thotful enuff to have made, that another godess made em, & these as a 'subset' for the goddesses.
im not sure what i think/feel bout It All - esp 'gems' cryptic bs comments, (late to the gathering - she wasna even sposta come, babysittin g'son)
there was ... so much .... gossip, but it was .... i guess tryin to understand certian folx behaviors. differnet 'subsets' & factions (it IS a rather large group - all told, probly several thou, when ya add in 'extended fam' - kids, siblings, spouses, etc) & we're (usually) scatterde all over the country.
just very mixed feelings bout things.

i woke at 930 this morn, said 'ug! too early' & rolled over, back to sleep until 6f'n30 pm!!! wtf?!?! really wish i could get a handle on my sleep.

oh, & missed t this wk too, cuz i slept too late
ug
oh well....

thansk for reading!!