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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by there » Tue Oct 10, 2017 3:51 pm

reisha,
Great news about your birthday call, FB friends, and pub celebration!
TV score! Yay! You're crafty getting it working! Lil tv sounds fun, too.
Hope you get the Medicare question (s) answered to make your decision.
reisha's hot buttered rum! Yum!
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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by Couragetoday » Thu Oct 12, 2017 10:07 pm

Hi Reisha

So awesome about the tv. What a find.
Glad you could do something special for your bday.
Sending lots of caring.

CT

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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by there » Sun Oct 15, 2017 6:02 pm

reisha,
Just checking in. Wondering how you are :)
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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by reisha » Mon Oct 16, 2017 11:05 pm

thanks, ladies!

last wed, saw a lil teeny tiny ad in the wkly 'underground' rag for a 'Grateful Day' fest. the font for the *info* part-a things was way more even teeny-tiny-er. i hadda use my magna glass, & even then was hard to suss out, but i did! know the folx who're puttin it on. called the lady here at my apts that i think i mite like & invited her. ( i'll call her '4th fl' for now, as i have stuff to share bout her, but maybe not in this post) - it took several calls, over several days for her to decide to pass. (she has asthma, & the smoke from the fires, &, &...) ok, no prob, & off i was gonna go, All By My Own (Lonesum?) Self. i think - still several days away. sat opens bright & sunny, hardly any sign-a smoke at all. i slowly Get My S*** Together, get vertical, pack a lite bag of toys, mags, munchies & bubbles & - dressed in 'show clothes' - one step (or more) down from 'full costume'. but leavin NO DOUBT ( dislike that band, hehe!) that im a full blown tye-died-in-the-wool...wooly-NOT-dreadlocked-Old-School-Hippie.
get there around 2 (it started @ noon, & went til 6 - PERFECT 'day show' for folx on pub transit!). i see an empty stage, & a 'kid zone' area, a few folx wandering aimlessly (is there any other way to wander?), vendors still settin up & i chuckle - yup, we're runnin on california hippie time! i make my 1st strolll up the 8? 12? blocked off blocks, not really checkin too many vendors, cuz 1) im broke, & 2) they're in 'set up' mode, but i check out a coupla-a em - a lady on esty who make 'vegan ears & tails' - the CUTEST animal ears, tails. she hadda box marked 'free roadkill' fulla scraps - EXPENSIVE fake fur, etc. & yes, i gotta bag - & we chatted bout festis for bout 1/2 hr; she then asked if id watch her booth while she peed. all day, it was that level of .... trust, that level of openess. i left her booth & continued my meander up the street. get to the other stage, where a ...... okish dead cover band was gettin started. - they dinna play that well, but KILLER vocals!! i pulled up a bit of shady curb, listened & 'curb danced' & sang along to their set. then set off back the way i'd come. many-a the vendors were known to me, if not friends; i was quoted great prices that i couldna afford. did get a 'fairy vase' for $2, & 3 pieces of 'grape agate/mother quartz' for a buck each. got back to the main stage, which now hadda bad (as in, 'not very good') brass band playing. there were stilt walkers & bubble makers, & this 'young' (to me) group w/ a massage chair. i hung out by them, asked if they were givin massages. yes they were! have a seat! so, they 'adopted' me for the rest-a the aft'noon. the brass band went away (thank GAWD!) & the headliner came on. i not only chair danced, i actually got up & gently boogied a lil bit too! we exhanged e-addys & phone #'s (nuthin ever comes of this, lol - & w/ a 'tude like <--that, am i s'prized?) & then, after sayin my g'byes to them, ran into sum goddess friends. still got home by 8:30. it was so low key, laid back, friendly, trusting, .... it was a ~PERFECT~ day. (if only EVERY day could be xmas....!)

but sun & today, im back to pukin after eatin. sumtins wrong (duh!) & i slept thru my 8:30am (ouch!) GI appt a wk ago - need to re-sched that
once i get done comparin/callin/takin notes on which medicare plan i want for next yr, & switch for the remainder of this yr...... <sigh!> think there's like 6 plans i can choose from, includin }kaiser{.
wish me luck

{{{ISURVIVE!!}}

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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by there » Wed Oct 18, 2017 6:50 pm

reisha,
Sounds like a great (grate) (full) :lol: adventure you had! Seeing people you know, and socializing with or helping others you just met, getting a massage into the deal!

Puking after eating sounds difficult. Hope you get a new appt soon.

6 plans- a lot to Wade through. You'll find the one that's best for you.
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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by reisha » Thu Oct 19, 2017 12:27 am

thank ya, There

warning: medical rant ahead!!!!!
(!#&!@)#Y!(#UYH!JIWH!WH(!#Y!)*#^*)&)(&W(!)@&IU!H@!*Y#T(&!#T!(#^)(!
ive managed to get myself all worked up, annoyed, irratated, pissed off......
f'n medicare/social secuirity/etc

too long to type details, ut wtf duz a ins co need my name/rank/cereal # b4 transferin me to an agent, so i can find out if my county is wunna the 'select counties' in N cal that their co offers ins plans for?!?!?! on the phone for over 10 minnits w/ these assholes, to find out nope, my countys not wunna em. told em that was a buncha bs
& my s/w gave me bad info on sum other med/ins related stuff
& i dont know how much 'extra help' i get; w/out that info, cant find out what my ACTUAL premiums/co-pays'll be & im frustrated, annoyed, pissed off ..... seems like a non-productive day of phone work, ut i spose i did find out a few things.
& went to ldg coordinater, to (hopefully) 1) create a medicare acct, & more inpoetantly2) get my statement printed out for my apt reveiw - f'n puters! 'cant create acct w/ that ss # - AARRRGGHHHHHHHHH!!! - i give the F up!!!!
so much for a ~full days work~ .......
i want ....
calmness, UNpissed/frustrated.
better info, A NON KAISER SNAP PLAN!!!!!, morer efficient & effective 'cust service' reps. - when ino more aout ins plans than the rep doe, it dunna ode well for that co. - hmm, looks like my 'b' key is stuck
i dinna correct any-a my typos, hope this is readale!!!
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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by there » Fri Oct 20, 2017 2:57 am

reisha,
I understand the feeling of utter frustration.
Seems sometimes every possible boulder rolls into the path. :roll:
I am so impressed by your determination in this Medicare decision. You inspire me, reisha.
I'm going to get as much done as I can on the library computer tomorrow.
Sending calming force field/light glow to surround and soothe you.
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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by recover » Sun Oct 22, 2017 10:10 pm

hi reisha,
it is utterly frustrating. like there, i admire your perseverance.
we live in a crazy healthcare system. crazy.
here with much support and caring,
recover xo

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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by Couragetoday » Mon Oct 23, 2017 1:45 pm

Hi Reisha,

I wish it wasn’t so needlessly complicated.
Wish it wasn’t so frustrating.
Hoping something pans out really soon.

Sending caring

CT

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Re: reisha's 2018 thread

Post by reisha » Fri Oct 27, 2017 10:21 pm

inna crappy, hateful, spiteful mood. yeah yeah - this too shall pass.

think that ..... i give way more than i get. - a lil bit here, but more on another site (the DH one) & IRL too. so, i kinda 'seed' a thing & no one responds, or does so inna very superficial, bs-y way. like yeah, 'lets do lunch', only lunch never comes. people are all wrapped up in their own shit. & everyone braggin bout this & that, how great their life is, how wonderful their relationships are, how f'n BLESSEd they are. well, fuck them & the blessings they rode in on!!

been havin shitty dreams again - the latest series involves abusing babies, & i love it, get off on it. cuz, yano - they're just so damn f'n INNOCENT, & helpless, & they cant tattle on me. & theres just sumtin so damn SEDUCTIVE bout destroyin innocence. bwahaha!!
pretty sure these dreams are affectin my mood (d'ya THINK!?)

i feel unloved, uncared for, unnoticed. - a 'throw away' life, a throw away person. easy to ignore, dismiss. & it angers me, makes me wanna lash out, cause hurt to others - like thats the only way to get noticed, get attention. by bein a bully.
im in such a crappy mood that it dunnna bother me that my thots are goin as dark as they are. this is different than my usual SI thots. this is barely controlled RAGE - & i have no idea over what.

enuff for now

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