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Kaybes
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Sort of new here

Post by Kaybes » Mon Jul 09, 2018 8:38 pm

Hi all! I am sort of new to this site. I signed up a while ago but cannot remember if I did any posting or not to introduce myself. So here it is:

I am the survivor of CSA by a brother of my mother. My mom knew it was going on and did nothing to stop it. I have been in therapy for a while and am learning a little about new coping methods and trying to make a move toward healing. This went on from when I was 9 months until I was 14 years old. So the first 14 years of my life essentially. I know that there were things wrong with it and that he was wrong in my head. Being r by someone who is 18 years older than me is just not right but for whatever reason I cannot seem to accept that.
I was also r repeatedly by a cousin a year older than me very violently. This has it's own issues.

Here I am trying to function in adult like and trying to make my way through the world but flashbacks, body memories, and nightmares do not help with this. I am angry a good majority of time and when I am not angry I am depressed. I know there are ways to move through my life but I cannot see a light in the closet of secrets.
Anyway that is me in a nutshell.
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Re: Sort of new here

Post by Harmony » Tue Jul 10, 2018 12:56 am

Welcome Kaybee,

You are not alone in this. Hope you find some company for healing from this harm.

with care,
Harmony

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Re: Sort of new here

Post by Jonesy » Tue Jul 10, 2018 3:38 am

Hi Kaybes

A warm welcome to isurvive
You are important
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Kaybes
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Re: Sort of new here

Post by Kaybes » Tue Jul 10, 2018 5:56 am

Thank you!
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wolfspirit
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Re: Sort of new here

Post by wolfspirit » Mon Jul 16, 2018 4:55 am

Hello, Kaybes :)
You've survived a lot of trauma and you're reaching out for help. That is an amazing thing by itself.
I also have body memories, flashbacks, and depression. My anger has not been tapped into yet. I know it is there, though.
I'm glad you've shared with us what you're going through. I hope it helps ease some of the pain.

take care,

wolfspirit
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Rumi

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Re: Sort of new here

Post by quixote » Tue Jul 17, 2018 2:18 am

Kaybes,
Sorry to hear about your a****. Glad that you are here, and posting.
quixote

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Re: Sort of new here

Post by Jonesy » Sat Sep 22, 2018 6:17 am

Hi Kaybes

Hope that you make it back here to write again soon. There is a lot of support to be found amidst some pretty awesome people.
You are important
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