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Hello, new here.
Hi, I'm new here. I began dealing with repressed memories and clear flashbacks early last year (although, to be fair, they were always there; I just didn't know what they were and had pushed them out of my brain).
I'm blessed to be surrounded by amazing friends and an extremely supportive partner who is also my best friend. I'd cut contact off with my biological family last year because they don't deserve any space in my life except within the context of my own recovery.
My partner and I have tried to deal with everything on our own this past year, because we were unable to find a therapist with whom I could be comfortable. We've found one now, though, and I'm meeting T on Thursday. *fingers crossed*
A lot of my childhood and early adulthood (I'm 29 now) involves being subjected to EA, VA, PA, SA, RSA, RA by my parents and others. Some of it, I remember; some of it comes back to be in flashbacks, alters, and recovered memories sometimes; the rest of the horror is still buried somewhere in my subconscious.
I will hopefully be able to share more here soon; meanwhile, I'm just really, really, really glad I found this forum. You guys have no idea how glad I am! I don't know you folks, but I think I love you already.
In solidarity. :-)
I'm blessed to be surrounded by amazing friends and an extremely supportive partner who is also my best friend. I'd cut contact off with my biological family last year because they don't deserve any space in my life except within the context of my own recovery.
My partner and I have tried to deal with everything on our own this past year, because we were unable to find a therapist with whom I could be comfortable. We've found one now, though, and I'm meeting T on Thursday. *fingers crossed*
A lot of my childhood and early adulthood (I'm 29 now) involves being subjected to EA, VA, PA, SA, RSA, RA by my parents and others. Some of it, I remember; some of it comes back to be in flashbacks, alters, and recovered memories sometimes; the rest of the horror is still buried somewhere in my subconscious.
I will hopefully be able to share more here soon; meanwhile, I'm just really, really, really glad I found this forum. You guys have no idea how glad I am! I don't know you folks, but I think I love you already.
In solidarity. :-)
‘life is not about waiting for the storm to pass; it is about learning to dance in the rain.’
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Dear laalteyn,
Welcome to isurvive. I hope you find this safe community a place for further healing. You will find lots of gentle support.
with warm wishes,
Harmony
Welcome to isurvive. I hope you find this safe community a place for further healing. You will find lots of gentle support.
with warm wishes,
Harmony
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Hello laalteyn. I'm glad you found isurvive also. Good to have you here.
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Hi Laalteyn
Welcome to this safe place. You will find lots of support here.
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Welcome to this safe place. You will find lots of support here.
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Hi laalteyn,
It's good to meet you and I hope you find all the support you deserve here.
ajei
It's good to meet you and I hope you find all the support you deserve here.
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Hi laalteyn
Welcome to isurvive. I'm really glad you found us.
Welcome to isurvive. I'm really glad you found us.
You are important
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Thank you, folks.
For now, I'm going through the various threads on this forum. I'm grateful to the people who've shared experiences here and those who continue to do so; reading about yours helps me makes sense of mine, sort of. Most importantly, it shows me that I'm not the only person in the world who is feeling this way; that my fear and terror and flashbacks are actually ‘normal’, given the circumstances. So yeah, that's a relief. For starters. :-)
It is actually funny. For many years, I've counselled survivors of gender-based violence. I've helped them understand exactly the same things that I now explain to myself: it wasn't your fault; you were too young; etc etc. But my god, it is so much harder to make myself believe this now. Heh. :-)
For now, I'm going through the various threads on this forum. I'm grateful to the people who've shared experiences here and those who continue to do so; reading about yours helps me makes sense of mine, sort of. Most importantly, it shows me that I'm not the only person in the world who is feeling this way; that my fear and terror and flashbacks are actually ‘normal’, given the circumstances. So yeah, that's a relief. For starters. :-)
It is actually funny. For many years, I've counselled survivors of gender-based violence. I've helped them understand exactly the same things that I now explain to myself: it wasn't your fault; you were too young; etc etc. But my god, it is so much harder to make myself believe this now. Heh. :-)
‘life is not about waiting for the storm to pass; it is about learning to dance in the rain.’
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Hi laalteyn,
It's nice to meet you. Welcome to isurvive.
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It's nice to meet you. Welcome to isurvive.
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laalteyn, I understand those feelings. Its like those things dont apply to me but apply to everyone else. So i will tell you. I am sorry you have a need to be here. You did not deserve whatever happened and it is never the child fault. Maybe you will one day believe that. I still struggle with it.
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Hi Laalteyn,
Welcome. I'm glad you found this place, too. I hope you find the support you need. There is a very strong voice in my head tonight, saying "it is Never the child's fault, Never".
Magical Thinker
Welcome. I'm glad you found this place, too. I hope you find the support you need. There is a very strong voice in my head tonight, saying "it is Never the child's fault, Never".
Magical Thinker